One More Thing

So I've decided to take one more thing on in addition to everything else I have going on.  At some point last year I joined a Christian book club.  Out of the books I ordered I have had time to read one of them.  They were discarded to the side and forgotten about until I ran across them in search of something else.  While I don't have time to read any of them, I am going to take the time to do The Love Dare.  I have had plans to start it all week, but it just hasn't worked out with my two jobs and four classes.  Tomorrow is the big day.  I WILL start it!

P90X Here We Come!!!

This is us December 24, 2009. Give us 90 days and you won't be able to recognize us. lol Okay, so maybe you will, but we will be healthier, fitter people. Scott and I will begin the P90X program tomorrow. He wants to slim down and build muscle. I want to eat a more balanced diet and build muscle. Starting weights are 188 (he's already lost some) and 121 (unfortunately, I've lost some from not eating right). This is going to be a hard program to stick to with both of our hectic schedules, but we WILL do it!

In addition to P90X I will be running more. Scott, such a wonderful husband, got me a treadmill for Christmas. I can tell a huge difference in my motivation and dedication to getting healthier already. And even with mostly just running I can see the muscle definition returning to my legs. Yes! We also combined our Christmas money and bought a small home gym. I'm so proud that he has been using both pieces of equipment too. Can't wait to be a smoking hot couple on the beaches of the Caribbean!

Light bulbs and Decisions

First the light bulb...I forgot my password to my blog (which is why I haven't posted in a while). It just hit me that it was the same as my gmail password. Duh! All this time I haven't been able to respond to blogs or post my own. Man I'm getting forgetful!

Now the decisions...I just read a note on Facebook that one of my friends posted. She will be having a child soon (within a month). In the note she mentioned how they tried for 2 1/2 years and how devastating it was. To me 2 1/2 years doesn't seem long at all. It made me realize that it has now been 12 years since I have been dealing with infertility and 2 years since our failed IVF. So much has gone through my head in that time about starting a family. Scott and I debated last year about trying again (or picking back up on the adoption road) this summer. But then I wonder...will either work? Will I be waiting forever? Am I meant to be a mom? And, yes, sometimes I even wonder if I truly still want to be a mom. That last question enters my mind more often as I inch closer to 30. Deep down I know that I truly do still want to have children. I think the last thought is a defensive thought so that I won't be devastated if that dream never comes to fruition.